40 day flood

I've noticed
that whenever we come to a point
where we reach out in desperation,....
whether it be to God,
or a relationship,
or even friendship,.......
It seems that what we find,
is rarely what is best for us.

Desperation seems to cloud our judgement.
I've been there...
done that.
I've read here so many times about learning to love ourselves first.
And when I allow that to
happen.......
that's when spirituality
seems to settle on me in a more graceful manner.
It doesn't feel like I'm forced into a corner
with
no
way
out.
I guess life is just like that.
And from what I've noticed,
those who can do the day to day stuff,
lovingly,and forgivingly........
seem to be able to \"allow\" their own happiness,
rather than struggle to achieve it.

I wish I was like that.
But I am paying attention.......
and hopefully I'm learning a little, too.