SPINNING WHEEL

funny
physical pain walks hand id hand
with emotional pain
tears fall
fear grows
darkness surrounds a room alit,
television blaring "no i love you".
it's a special day,
when we are
not fighting crying hurting
married maybe
does it matter
hoping not to be?
what would i do
without you
nothing
for i am nothing
have nothing
wanting nothing i could not have
sought not found
try i fail
and try again
i cry
failing
i am again tired
forever consigned
to life confined
within myself
my madness
forever gone
what once i believed
now im bereaved
knowing its gone
i ride the spinning wheel