I needed to remember

it has been so long since
I have even considered tenderness
the faintest memories
the stroking of passion
how absurd to get lost in it
without care for the hours
there is something that lingers

pale red casades the night sky
and I remember your hands
how they implied the greatness in me
tracing the lines
in the curve of my hips
do you realize how I miss it?
something to be excited about
something to make me feel again
something to make me want

for you...
I laid it down, hard
and I refused to sweeten it extra
I don't apologize
for showing you the whole picture
even if it wasn't always beautiful
I can't go through my life
pretending for someone else's happiness

and as I reflect, I wonder
past the remembrance of your taste-
my taste for ever-pursuing love...
if it is possible
to hold on to elation
for a life time
without becoming disillusioned
when balanced against our expectations