treating myself

it's been awhile
since I have allowed myself
the luxury
of longing for you

making time
slow long loving
I'd like to take
my time with you

ease in to the unforgiving
joy of age
and experience
can I gain some with you

for the small amount
you have shown me
has made me want
to see the rest

the day is tired
of being postponed
alongside \"somedays\"
never recognized

have you held
your breath for me?
quickened by desire
and released by love

in time
what is right
becomes more obvious
if we allow it

and I wonder
if you
are wondering
too...