<u><b>bp5: continuity</b></u>

shift in regular work hours -


can't tame this book in one


fell swoop of three hour blocks


of time stacked up one on another


to the ceiling of loose papers with


words printed on them -

not sure i can write it straight thru


either - although this may not be good,


i think i can handle putting the pieces


back together again - perhaps/maybe.

20 pages so far - prob about half to be cut -


i want to jump ahead in the story and write a


scene w/out it yet having to fit to a specific


aspect of the general plot floating out there


somewhere just beyond reach all these years.

fears again of what it takes to sit down night


after night and just write what comes - and finals


at school so near - not been to classes is prob a


stupid thing to do, but, perhaps it was just meant


to be for some reason - out of failure at school a


novel emerges?

not too novel an idea and yet i will somehow strive


for both, for all, perhaps failing at all...

well, to work then.