sober heart

reflecting,
beating,
seeming
unstoppable,
needing bypass
surgery -
clogged arteries,
the stars remind me
of you and me seeming
so close and yet millions
of miles apart, twinkling,
blinking on and off at
varing degrees of
brightness.

blackened heart,
burnt to a crisp
i see no point in
all of this,
these words
solve nothing
and mean nothing
to anyone besides me
while i wish for someone
beside me in spirit and mind
and a she that doesn't mind
my rants on time and place
and space of the rat race
maze place i disappear
into each day like
an internment
camp.