positively not negative

yeah, some-
times it
happens
and then
the battery
is charged a-
gain and i won-
der how long it
will last this t-
ime, i'm smiling
and the barbs
bounce off
the armor
i've got
on un-
like
any
ot-
her.

a source of power.
pearls before swine.
parables of water to
wine. the whine of the
rich man who can't give
it all up.

Lost - not i,
a light shining
from the hilltop,
not under a table
anymore. yes, i make
mistakes, yes, i am
merely human, yes i
am kpaul, and yes,
you can quote me
on that if you
can keep up
with me, i
am obli-
vious, ob-
lique, leak-
ing happi-
ness, not
the zen-
ness but
another
rest, the
chest rises
and falls, taking
in air, living and
breathing in the 3D
world we call life
at the moment and
the arrows of the
others who would
drain me don't
stick - the prick
of the dart doesn't
cause me to bleed,
and the hatred of
this, the hatred
of agape in the
others, this hat-
red will fan the
flames of revo-
lution and there
will only be one
or two here and
there to escape
to warn the others,
until the end. this
is it - it's harder
to see now with the
plan coming to fruit-
ion, and yet it is
not yet a sin to
seem and say hap
-py things, or a
-nother emotion-
al dump.

positively not negative,
only recharging, finding
that source of calm and
peace - practicing for
the final scene - after
act 4 scene 7 i will be
in quite a scene and i
will be thankful for
learning the lessons
i'm learning now.

someday i'll be sitting against a fencepost,
in the rain,
dreaming of the days i'm living now.

faint traces of a smile
grow.